Portfolio: Not mySelf: Not mySelf 2019: Not mySelf; 24 Dec 19

I still grieve over the friendships I’ve avoided walking away from. The ones I’ve convinced myself I can accept; despite the fact I’ve never been a priority to them unless they wanted me for something. In my head, I justify it still.But to the ones who’ve been there with me through the mud, who’ve dropped me a line just to say they thought of me, the ones who’ve helped make me laugh in the middle of an anxiety attack, and the ones who cried with me when the depression took the driver’s seat. And also to the ones who celebrated with me and continue to lift me up.To the friends/family who have loved and accepted and CHERISHED our relationship regardless of whether I made stupid decisions; I see you and I appreciate and love you.Merry Christmas to everyone. And I pray love and happiness and blessings on everyone for 2020.*Caption edited  for personal reasons.*
Not mySelf; 24 Dec 19

I still grieve over the friendships I’ve avoided walking away from. The ones I’ve convinced myself I can accept; despite the fact I’ve never been a priority to them unless they wanted me for something. In my head, I justify it still. 

But to the ones who’ve been there with me through the mud, who’ve dropped me a line just to say they thought of me, the ones who’ve helped make me laugh in the middle of an anxiety attack, and the ones who cried with me when the depression took the driver’s seat. And also to the ones who celebrated with me and continue to lift me up. 

To the friends/family who have loved and accepted and CHERISHED our relationship regardless of whether I made stupid decisions; I see you and I appreciate and love you. 

Merry Christmas to everyone. And I pray love and happiness and blessings on everyone for 2020. 

*Caption edited for personal reasons.*